July 3rd, 2019

Today was pretty normal. While I was free, one of my friends sent me a post about a show that I could go to. Mom and Dad did always want me to go to shows with Jade, so I decided to join it. Registration ends in a few days, but the show isn't until August. I haven't talked to my parents in a while. I'm finding myself wondering how they are doing more and more. I'm sure they have heard my decision by now, even if they didn't hear it directly from me. I mean, I announced it publicly and they follow me, or followed me at least. Regardless of if they have or haven't, I noticed that Dad didn't seem... himself when they left. I want to make sure that they are alright, but I'm too scared of what might happen...... I know I can't ask Reyina to check on them because she had her fallout with them years ago. They would get too suspicious. Besides, ever since she left without saying a word to them, I'm not sure Dad or Mom trust her. On top of all that, I need to find another job so that I can start saving for Jade. Our lease ends in five months and I don't want to lose her too.... I need two constants at least in my life. I wish I could have all the answers in my hands right now. I wish I would know exactly what to do. I wish a lot of things could happen, but I know I have to move on and make life work. I'm going to try, not for me but for the ones I love. I will make this work and I will protect the ones I love. For right now, I think a good way forward is to try to improve my art skills enough to open commissions and try to get another job. Babysitting, maybe? Anyways, thank goodness I am supported by Flynn and Klaus. Without them, I think I would have broken the day he left.